how in Sex and the City, when Carrie says that when she's starting out in NY she would buy a Vogue instead of dinner because she felt it fed her more?
Well I guess that's how you justify passion for something.
I'm not putting this in my other blog cause who knows if someone at work can see find it. I'm not trying to sound like I don't appreciate this opportunity that has come my way, because I do. But mentally, I'm over it. It doesn't challenge me. It almost pains me to write things like "There's Something About this blonde haired Angel." It's very dumb downed.
So, I realized, fucking a, I'm in LA, why not pursue what I truly want to do? So today, I was at Barnes and Noble and I wandered into the film/tv section. Baad choice, or good which ever way you want to look at it. I stood there for probably a half hour looking at all these books. Then I had my Carrie moment. I knew I really didn't have the money to buy books, but at the same time, these books will feed me more than anything else. So I bought two books, The 101 Habits of Highly Successful Screenwriters and the screenplay to Knocked Up. I have a book back home about the format and technical aspects of writing a script. I wanted one that was more inside the mind of how to make it as one. This books seems pretty cool. And actually seeing a script like the one for Knocked Up is really cool. I'm able to pull it apart. I think buying screenplays is my new favorite thing. The next one I want to buy is the one for American Beauty. But, like Carrie, these purchases are coming at a price. So instead of eating lunch, I'll walk over to the park across the street and read the book I bought. It might seem extreme but at the same time, you do what you have to do. I don't have all the money in the world right now, and not making any income makes it hard to feel secure. And no, I can't just go get a job either, they've been having me come in 5 days a week and my car isn't doing to well with the stop and go traffic here.
But, I've realized. Writing intellectually stimulating things is my passion. Not writing stupid shit that is meant for an idiot to understand. I want to write something provoking and insightful, that impacts people in a positive way. And I will. I want to be a screenwriter/producer/director. Ha, yeah, I dream big. But that's what I want to do. Not write a silly blurb about an actor.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Giving us all hope!
Ok, so after being around a lot of guys this weekend, I came to this consensus, Megan Fox is the hottest thing on the planet. All guys seem to love her, a little too much.
There she is recently. And she does look good, I will admit. Still no Angelina Jolie in my book.
Anyway, this is what she looked like though when she was in the movie Confessions of a Drama Queen or something like that, it was some Lindsay Lohan movie before she got all crazy.
Now I get she is younger, but damn, she grew into her looks. Or got some help along the way to look the way she does now. If however, we go with the fact she just got better with age, it gives all of us hope that we can go from good to smoking hot. Haha.
There she is recently. And she does look good, I will admit. Still no Angelina Jolie in my book.
Anyway, this is what she looked like though when she was in the movie Confessions of a Drama Queen or something like that, it was some Lindsay Lohan movie before she got all crazy.
Now I get she is younger, but damn, she grew into her looks. Or got some help along the way to look the way she does now. If however, we go with the fact she just got better with age, it gives all of us hope that we can go from good to smoking hot. Haha.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Positive thinking...
So, I'm in LA and have been updating my other blog instead of this one. But this is a post I feel belongs more on this one.
I'm really liking LA. And what I'm doing here. It's crazy to think I'm actually here, but at the same time, feels like there's nowhere else I should be right now. I think the weirdest thing for me isn't how I feel about being here, but how other people are reacting to me being here. I really don't think it's that big of a deal, just the logical step of what I need to do to do what I want in life.
Yesterday, after talking to a guy I know, he said that he was proud of what I was doing and I was inspiring him to follow his dreams and what he really wants to do in life. In kind of shocked me because I wasn't thinking of how what I'm doing could be affecting other people. The only reaction I was able to detect so far was more people pissed off I was doing this which was weird and I just completely ignored. I mean, I don't know, it kind of shocks me that people seem to just settle. I've never really second guessed what I wanted out of life, I've always known. When people gave me shit for being a communication major, I never cared. A worthless major... yeah, try to do what I'm doing now without it. I always knew I'd get to LA. How, haha, I never really knew. But I have never thought I would just settle to live in Washington.
I feel everyone really knows what they want to do in life and what they want to get out of what they're doing. It becomes more of a do people really have the courage inside themselves to do it. I truly believe everyone can do anything they want, I just think most people get scared and stick with what's easy and they know they can succeed at. I mean, before I came down here I was thinking how it'd be so much easier to just stay in Pullman all summer, working and actually making money because I knew it. But then I realized how stupid that thought was, of course doing something new isn't easy. But eventually it gets there.
And it doesn't matter what other people think about what you're doing, as long as you're happy. I don't know, talking to people recently and how they've reacted to what I'm doing, it seems a lot of people aren't doing what they truly want in life. Instead they just settled for things that they knew they could do well at.
So I guess the point of all of that is, everyone should truly go after what they want in life. If you believe in yourself you really can do anything.
With that said, can't always be positive. My car is just one example of negative thinking for me right now. We got an expensive tune up before driving it down here. The check engine light came on halfway down the drive here. Then it went off. Then two days ago, the car just died after idling. It turned right back on. Then, it happened again not even twenty minutes later, on probably the busiest road in LA leading to the highway that everyone takes to go to the Valley, it died again. Started up again but still. The drivers here are complete and totals assholes. I don't even know what would've happened if it wouldn't of turned back on. I need to stop thinking negative thoughts though and just tell myself the car is fine and will run completely fine and I'll be able to drive it back up when the internship is over.
Here's a video for the secret that's kind of inspiring. It's totally cheesy, especially the end. But, if you're in need of a little inspiration, it could help.
I'm really liking LA. And what I'm doing here. It's crazy to think I'm actually here, but at the same time, feels like there's nowhere else I should be right now. I think the weirdest thing for me isn't how I feel about being here, but how other people are reacting to me being here. I really don't think it's that big of a deal, just the logical step of what I need to do to do what I want in life.
Yesterday, after talking to a guy I know, he said that he was proud of what I was doing and I was inspiring him to follow his dreams and what he really wants to do in life. In kind of shocked me because I wasn't thinking of how what I'm doing could be affecting other people. The only reaction I was able to detect so far was more people pissed off I was doing this which was weird and I just completely ignored. I mean, I don't know, it kind of shocks me that people seem to just settle. I've never really second guessed what I wanted out of life, I've always known. When people gave me shit for being a communication major, I never cared. A worthless major... yeah, try to do what I'm doing now without it. I always knew I'd get to LA. How, haha, I never really knew. But I have never thought I would just settle to live in Washington.
I feel everyone really knows what they want to do in life and what they want to get out of what they're doing. It becomes more of a do people really have the courage inside themselves to do it. I truly believe everyone can do anything they want, I just think most people get scared and stick with what's easy and they know they can succeed at. I mean, before I came down here I was thinking how it'd be so much easier to just stay in Pullman all summer, working and actually making money because I knew it. But then I realized how stupid that thought was, of course doing something new isn't easy. But eventually it gets there.
And it doesn't matter what other people think about what you're doing, as long as you're happy. I don't know, talking to people recently and how they've reacted to what I'm doing, it seems a lot of people aren't doing what they truly want in life. Instead they just settled for things that they knew they could do well at.
So I guess the point of all of that is, everyone should truly go after what they want in life. If you believe in yourself you really can do anything.
With that said, can't always be positive. My car is just one example of negative thinking for me right now. We got an expensive tune up before driving it down here. The check engine light came on halfway down the drive here. Then it went off. Then two days ago, the car just died after idling. It turned right back on. Then, it happened again not even twenty minutes later, on probably the busiest road in LA leading to the highway that everyone takes to go to the Valley, it died again. Started up again but still. The drivers here are complete and totals assholes. I don't even know what would've happened if it wouldn't of turned back on. I need to stop thinking negative thoughts though and just tell myself the car is fine and will run completely fine and I'll be able to drive it back up when the internship is over.
Here's a video for the secret that's kind of inspiring. It's totally cheesy, especially the end. But, if you're in need of a little inspiration, it could help.
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