Don't worry, be happy...

So, this year, a big goal for myself has been to be way more positive and try to keep my head up when things look bad. I don't think I've been 100% on it but I've tried. I'm a huge fan of the Secret. People can say what they want about it, how it's just some pop culture gimmick that's making money off of desperate people. However, when I look at my life before and after I read that book, the differences in things that have happened and opportunities that arose, it's pretty amazing.

The weirdest part I think is just telling yourself you already have these things, but I had yet another thing happen to make me really believe thinking positive works. I filled out about fifteen applications for various communication and broadcast scholarships last winter. The whole time I was doing it I told myself I was going to get a few of them and get a good chunk of money. I have no clue how many kids applied for these scholarships but they were open to the whole college of communication. Last week I was told what my scholarship application results were and I got three scholarships totaling $5000. I honestly sat there for a minute just staring at the screen and the amounts after each scholarship. I had to go in to fill some paperwork out and the lady said "Oh you got the big one!!" I'm so happy I got these scholarships. It's going to help me out a lot for my final year. Plus one of the scholarships I got was to help out getting an internship in one of the top 5 markets! So hopefully I can use that one this summer to go to LA. I'm such a big believer in the Secret and things happening like this just further prove it. I told myself I'd get this and then I got it.

A big part of the Secret is to follow your instincts. So now I'm following my instinct to pitch a show idea to the student-run communication channel. It'd be based on my college town, kind of a show like The OC. I'm really excited about it. I'm hoping it all goes through so then I can say I created/wrote/directed a show in college and look how awesome it was! Hahaha. I don't know, I know you can dream really big, but tiny steps can lead you up to big things. So I'm seeing this as a tiny step to a big dream, of getting my own show on a major network.

Man, this semester has opened my eyes to all these new opportunities I never even considered. But I really like where my life could be going. It's way more less certain and up in the air, but I like that. I'd rather go this way then down a road of hating my career with a passion. People always say "You won't make it, it's such a hard industry to break into." But people do make it, people do break in. I think it's the ones who really believe in themselves and know they can do it. Otherwise, there would be no entertainment industry. So regardless of how many times I hear "This will be nearly impossible" I'm still going to go after it. It may be nearly impossible but a lot better than sitting behind a news desk everyday pretending to like reading stories about a robbery/murder/financial crisis.

Anyway, I know if I stay positive, what I want to happen will happen. It's worked so well in my student life/work life. I just need to really work on moving this positive thinking into other areas of my life that I'm incredibly negative about.

I'll be there soon. =)