Hello 2010...

I'm not sad to see 2009 go. It was a year that was full of ups and downs. My grandma died. I got the internship I wanted and spent a summer living in Los Angeles. Experienced some new things with new people, both good and bad. All in all, I learned a hell of a lot. I have no real regrets from 2009, but I'm definitely going to take things I learned and hopefully not repeat the same mistakes. With that said, I'm leaving quite a few things behind in 2009. My goal is to leave certain people and habits in 2009, we'll see how that goes.

I don't think you can say I have any real resolutions for 2010. I don't like resolutions much because they just seem like they are things meant to be broken or not completed. However, I do have a list of things I hope to accomplish in 2010, which in my mind is entirely different than resolutions. These are just life goals and this is the year to make them happen.

1. I'm graduating in May, which is actually a really exciting, sad and scary thought all at the same time. I'm looking forward to going back next week but at the same time it'll be sad knowing this is the last semester I'll be spending with people I've spent the last four years with. So with graduating, I have a goal of finding myself a relatively good job in the field I want in Los Angeles. Ha, kind of high hopes. To go with that goal, I hope I have enough money saved to move down there with my friend Michael.

2. Write and finish my script. I have the idea, I have characters, I have some plot lines. I just need to get to it and start putting it all down on paper. I'm going to schedule a time of day that's dedicated to writing. If I want to be a writer it needs to be a daily habit. I'm taking a creative writing class and I think that'll help me stay motivated and challenged writing.

3. Lose weight. See this isn't a resolution because I've been saying it for the past how many years? It's just something I need to fucking do already. I have better motivation this year I think though. I was informed I'll be a bridesmaid in a little over a year, so yeah, I refuse to be the fat one in someone's expensive wedding photos. My graduation present is going to New York and I really want to be in shape for that. If for nothing else, to be able to go shopping and know I can walk into any store and can try anything on. Also, must find a job. It’s a sad truth, but how you look can greatly influence that. Your looks are someone’s first impression of you so it makes sense to look as good as I can as I’m job hunting. Not only does it help people’s first impression of me, but obviously my confidence would be higher.

I think those are really my main goals for 2010. Of course I want other things to happen but I don’t see those as goals. Life will happen as life chooses to happen. The only thing I can hope is for me to be open to things and not make stupid decisions.

I’m optimistic for this year, I seem to say this about every year. For some reason, I believe what I’m saying this time more. Maybe it’s because it’s an entirely new decade. We’ll just have to wait and see.

Oh, I guess one more goal is to write in here more. I kept saying that but I never did. So now I will. Not everyday, lets not be crazy. But at least a few times a week.

Here’s to a great 2010!